After My Experiences With Christian Fundamentalists, I Am Becoming Pantheistic Neo-Pagan

I think as a lapsed and now recovering Catholic I might become a Neo-Pagan. The worship of the Classical Olympian deities are quite attractive for me. Plus I love the subsequent artwork of later centuries devoted to these deities.

The above is a famous painting by Titian. I got the following description from London National Gallery’s web site:

Titian – Bacchus and Ariadne, 1522-23. Bacchus, god of wine, emerges with his followers from the landscape to the right. Falling in love with Ariadne on sight, he leaps from his chariot, drawn by two cheetahs, towards her. Ariadne had been abandoned on the Greek island of Naxos by Theseus, whose ship is shown in the distance. The picture shows her initial fear of Bacchus, but he raised her to heaven and turned her into a constellation, represented by the stars above her head. Titian’s little dog barks excitedly at the strutting faun with jasmine in his hair, trailing a mangled calf’s head alongside a caper flower, symbol of love.

Bacchus was not only the god of wine, but in his Greek form, Dionysius, he also represented certain primal urges and desires, such as sex. His cult was often orgiastic. One of the interesting ideas in Classical mythology was that if you denied one of these god’s their provenance, you suffered the consequences. The great Greek tragedians used these themes to the highest degree of dramatic and artistic perfection, and wrote of things that still speak to us today. Those who denied Bacchus suffered terrible things, as did those who denied Venus, the goddess of love and sex. To me, what these myths symbolize are certain basis human elements, such as sex and desire, and the stories about humans suffering at the hands of these gods when spurned symbolizes the harm and destruction that can come to us when we deny certain basic needs and desires. In the modern world, I would say that those who deny their basic sexuality often suffer some sort of neurotic or psychological consequence. There is much evidence of this in modern psychology.

I love the contrast of blue and white and a beautiful woman amidst all that...it is very Grecian.

Plus the ancient pagans were not uptight about nudity and sexuality. The above image would not have caused them scandal. Oh yeah…

 

For Lent, I Am Giving Up The Catholic Church

Holy Crusadors. They are right, according to traditional Biblical and Catholic teachings.

That’s right, for Lent I am giving up the Catholic Church. I need a break from all this. After serious consideration, and yes, prayer, I have decided that I need some distance. Whether I return is uncertain. I love the liturgical life of the Church, and I believe in the Sacraments, the Eucharist, etc, as well as the more mystical aspects of the religion, but so many other things are so troubling to me at the moment that I need to step back. My mind and soul do not need these conflicts right now.

Why am I distancing myself? Well, there are different reasons. The first is I simply do not believe in all that Church teaches. So why should I belong? I strongly disagree with the Church’s teaching on issues such as homosexuality, contraception, etc. I do not consider them sins. Belonging to an institution which says that those who act out on their same sex attractions are engaging in some sort of moral evil is not where I really want to belong. I know many practicing gay people, some of them in my own family, and I will not think of them as evil or morally disordered because of their sexual practices, their need to experience love with others in their own way. In the end, the Catholic Church perpetuates hatred and bigotry towards gays by its teachings on homosexuality. I do not see this as peripheral issue that can simply be ignored.

The rise of politicians such as Rick Santorum have also contributed to my alienation from the Church. I cannot listen to what he says and say to myself, I belong to same religion as this man. Having listened to his sort of Catholicism my entire life, I can no longer accept it. Whether we like it or not, Santorum does represent the teachings of the Church on these social issues. He is a true believer. Then, to see so many Evangelicals and Catholics openly question Obama’s Christian faith makes me realize how small minded and bigoted so many of these people are. If someone does not belong to their brand of Christianity, their very Christianity is questioned. Unfortunately this is as old as Christianity itself. It is particularly rife in more traditionally minded Catholic groups. In a larger political context, I cannot stand the Republican party, conservatives, or anything associated with them any longer. They are the greatest threat to freedom in our country, and they are being driven by religious fundamentalists, many of them Christian or Catholic, who want to create some sort of religious utopia or theocracy in this country. If this sounds extreme, I am planning some more post on this which show the facts of what the religious fundies think.

Virginia Gov. Bob McDonnell, another holy Christian warrior who wanted to enact state sponsored rape with forced vaginal probes of immoral, whorish women seeking abortions.

Really, there is not a whole lot of difference between American conservative Christians and Islamic fundamentalists: they both want to impose “God’s laws and rules” on the society around them. The GOP is turning into the American version of the Taliban. For instance, Republican Virginia Gov. Bob McDonnell is a good example of this American Taliban. He is a good, pure, morally upright Christian who wants to punish fornicators and other morally deviant people, the sort of thing they do in Afghanistan or Iran. He once wrote in a 1989 Thesis for Regent University, televangelist Pat Robinson’s madras, The Republican Party’s Vision for the Family: The Compelling Issue of The Decade.: “Government policy should favor married couples over ‘cohabitators, homosexuals or fornicators” He also said: “Man’s basic nature is inclined towards evil, and when the exercise of liberty takes the shape of pornography, drug abuse, or homosexuality, the government must restrain, punish, and deter.” This would be consistent with traditional Christian and Catholic teaching. Therefore, in the political reality of the world, he and his kind want to punish me for fucking women. I say to him and his ilk, fuck off. I will oppose you forever.

To belong to a group, it is essential that you feel some sort of fundamental connection with the members of that group. There needs to be some commonality. To a large degree, I no longer feel that with Catholicism. As the Church is presently structured, the strict orthodoxy promulgated on a daily basis through official Church organs, or through the Catholic media, is driving me away from God. I find it is now damaging my faith. I simply do not believe in many of the moral precepts any longer. I actually never did: I just told myself because I thought if I did not, God would punish me with eternal damnation. I was told I needed to believe in the Magisterium of the Church, that God speaks though them, if I want to save my soul, or feel close to God, even though many of those same teachings were antithetical to my basic nature. This created a sort of schizophrenic spiritual and psychological nature inside of me, which I now need to be free off. There is much more to this than I care to ever write about, so I will leave it at that.

The holy crusaders hate all forms of eroticism, especially female nudity. It makes them think naughty thoughts. Imagine!

Finally, my experiences on the Catholic and Christian blogosphere have been enlightening. The vitriol and hatred I have seen expressed on many traditionalist Catholic blogs, or other Christian blogs, towards those who do not agree with all Church teachings, or question certain things, made me realize that I have very little, if anything, in common with most of the those who seriously practice the faith. In a sense, when it comes to me I cannot deny their logic: my writings, my advocacy of sexual and erotic themes, is anathema to traditional Christian teaching. There is no way around that and for me it is a tension that has become too great. But even more than the sexual issues,  it is the anger and hatred of so many Christians that so disturbs me. I think for a lot of the general populace out there, Christianity is now beginning to be seen as a religion of hatred and intolerance, thanks to the likes of Santorum and Franklin Graham, among others. Many of the comments I have received on this blog concerning my religious questions, even though I do try to spell them out, are amazingly hostile and vindictive. Some of them I merely delete, because I do not want my comment section turning into a hatefest, nor do I want to participate in that. I have better things to do. This blog, in the end, was always meant to be a pleasurable exploration into sexuality and spirituality, not a slugfest on theology, although certainly many of my posts have dealt with controversial issues, and I know they will elicit such responses. But still, I try to be light hearted about things. Many holy Christians find this to be purely evil and utterly intolerable. My most recent post on this is a good example of how seriously maladjusted some in the Christian world are. If that is who they are fine, but I do not want to be associated with them.

Many of the people in the Catholic or Christian blogging world are recent converts. For me, I have spent my entire life within the Catholic Church. Even though I have met many wonderful people, and made lifelong friends, I cannot even begin to count the number of strident, hate filled people I have come across in my time, who, in the name of a cold theology, see the world in a certain way, and expect everyone else to follow “the rules”, and if they don’t, they are wrong, evil, condemned to hell, etc. For the recent convert, the Church is a wonderfully structured place, an almost abstract ideal put into physical form. Catholicism in particular is a religion of rules and regulations. But I am not a rule oriented person. I hate rules. I like to break them when I can. I really don’t like being told how or what to think or believe. The vast majority of the true, orthodox believers tend to be the rule oriented types: they easily accept what they are told, do not question it, and fall into line. They often fall into certain professions, such as accountants, engineers, military types, etc, the professions that tend to require a certain structured, linear way of thinking. Obeying is easy. In return they receive a certain sense of stability and continuity. For them, safe in the bosom of Holy Mother Church, the world is indeed ordered and harmonious. Again, if this works for them, all the better, for them. But I am not like this. I can’t help question things. Call it pride or whatever. But the bottom line is that I do not feel a connection any longer with the people or the institution to which I belong. So why belong?

Eric Cartman, a personal hero of mine.

This does not mean that I no longer believe in God. Christianity on the whole has been a great force for good in the world. It continues to do many good and great things. I just can’t stand conservative, holy orthodox Christians anymore. So, I may have to go back to my own culture’s ancient religious roots, such as the Olympian gods or something of that sort. After all, I am quite the devotee of Venus, as my blog demonstrates. As Cartman from South Park says, “Screw you guys, I’m going home.”

Some Wonderful, Love Filled Christians

Deliciously filthy and sinful.

David Collard’s blog offered me a pingback, for which I am grateful: http://davidcollard.wordpress.com/2012/02/23/153/ He had made a great sociological discovery on my blog recently of how right and left handed men spank their women. Apparently, however, his referencing of me and my blog was not appreciated by the holy warriors of Christendom. When sin arises, they are quick to protect the virtuous from the likes of me. Here were a few of the comments by two the most holy warriors of purity and chastity, both males, which tells you a lot about them right there.

The first, Will S., who once enjoyed my nude photos of women before becoming a eunich, wrote:

“Not sure why you indulge someone who claims to belong to your church, yet calls it the world’s biggest cult, at the same time. You are far more gracious and patient than I would be.“

Then Svar, a onetime commentator on Alte’s blog who is also a deeply religious and thoughtful individual.

“Agreed. I’ve read Racer’s drivel. He’s just a whiny little idiot.”

7man and Collard offered a defense of my blog I appreciate that from them. But this lead to Will S.’s response. Remember, Will once actually enjoyed my forbidden photos of female nudity.

“But more seriously, no, pics like that won’t send him to hell, in and of themselves. However, they betray a rebellious mindset; others of us who may enjoy such pics recognize that we’re not really supposed to, and we aren’t defiantly, flagrantly living in open violation of chastity. Better to be an old-fashioned hypocrite, and enjoy such things shamefully, in private, than to be openly in rebellion, and calling the church to which one claims to adhere, a cult. It’s one thing for a Protestant to criticize Rome: you expect that… Or an SSPX type; again, you’d expect that.
But a libertine rake, doing so, is just a libertine rake, no matter how much he claims otherwise. Do you take seriously the sort of ‘Catholics’ (quotes deliberate) who claim to be such yet also vociferously identify with being pro-choice, pro-gay-marriage, etc.? Then why take seriously a carnally-oriented drooling pig who delights in his own wickedness, rather than being ashamed of it?“

The argument he makes that being an old fashioned hypocrite and sinning in secret while publicly proclaiming purity is quite interesting, but I will save that for another post. For now, let me indulge my narcissistic self for a moment. I am quite flattered that a reference to my blog would ignite such an animus towards me. Truly. I must be doing something right.

So I thought I would write a little poem in honor of these loving, exemplary members of the Christian faith. God bless them.

Those who love God hate me, for I am false.
I speak my mind, I tell what I have known,
but this is too scandalous for those who
enjoy the Catholic truth and faith.
To burn me at the stake would be so fitting,
remove the sinner from our pure, true home;
we must be separate from filthy liars,
and those who lead our souls to total death.
So Racer X, leave us, begone you pig,
wallow in your grave sins and God will punish
you for sure, damning you to your own hell.
When you talk so openly of man’s lust,
you lead us all into the pit of filth
where you and all the other pigs reside.
Piggy, oink, piggy! Filth! Flesh! You must burn!
We, the pure, holy chosen ones of God,
will defend what we know as the one truth.
The Church Militant marches on together,
her faithful sons obey, goose stepping along.

Beauty, A Gift From God

Beauty, the stuff of God.

After too much pondering of deep, religious issues, my mind needs a break. At these moments I turn to beauty, especially feminine beauty.

The following photo, via Classic Porn: http://classicporn.tumblr.com/ is nice. It is sensual, sexual, without being lewd or crass. She has a somewhat exotic look, or perhaps it is a more southern Mediterranean look (I have always found Spanish women to be quite beautiful: the dark hair, dark eyes, hot temper). It is a wonderful expression of beauty. When the mind is weary from so many philosophical lucubrations, such an image or pure earthiness delights and relaxes.

Anger and Christianity

I can't help but ponder and question things...

What upsets me the most about religion is the anger and hatred that I see in so much of Christianity today. Rick Santorum is one angry Catholic. So many others in the public realm seem so angry and bitter in the name of Christianity. Often I have been attacked and my beliefs questioned because of my writings. How is this appealing? I suppose there has always been this strain within Christianity. But why should I let that influence my belief in God, and in my desire for spiritual sustenance. I have to remember that none of us are perfect. We all can improve.

I continue to believe. It is just that I cannot blindly accept everything that the Catholic Church tells me as being the absolute truth. Not to question things is inhuman. Does the Church really expect us to be mindless, zombie like adherents? I suppose some people can simply submit to Church authority and obey, but I am not one of them. I cannot simply deny and ignore all my experiences in life to fit my mind and beliefs and personality into an abstract doctrine or theology, especially when it comes to the messy world of human relationships. I think the Church is a few hundred years behind on certain matters.

Faith is truly a strange journey. One day I am angry; the next day I feel close to God, the next day I am questioning everything. In the end, as far as Christianity is concerned, it is all about Christ and your relationship with Him. Perhaps that sounds Protestant, but the Protestants have a good point on this one. Too many Catholics get caught up in a sort of idolatry of the Pope, or the Church itself, or the nuances of theology, and miss the big picture, or rather, miss the point of it all, which in the end is Christ.

So I continue along this path, uncertain and unsure about things, but still trusting in God that He is guiding me along the right path, for whatever reasons.

The Religious Right In Virginia Legislature Passes State Sponsored Rape

The Religious Right is a threat to us all, not just women.

The State of Virginia is on the verge of passing a law that will enact what is in effect state sponsored rape: http://www.slate.com/articles/double_x/doublex/2012/02/virginia_ultrasound_law_women_who_want_an_abortion_will_be_forcibly_penetrated_for_no_medical_reason.html

A bill passed recently by the House of Delegates and now awaiting the signature of the conservative republican Gov., Bob McDonnell, will require women seeking an abortion to first undergo a “trans-vaginal” ultrasound. This is basically a device that is inserted into a woman’s vagina in order to take a ultra sound reading of the fetus.  Under the proposed new law, this procedure would be required for women seeking an abortion in the first twelve weeks. Women will be forced to undergo this. I think the usual definition of rape is penetrating someone against their will.

This is more of the fruits of religious conservatives. They, and only they, are the ones who are pushing and sponsoring such legislation (such as the absurd “personhood” amendment crap which is popping up all over the place). They believe life begins at conception. Fine. The problem is that they want everyone to believe the same thing. Not fine.

Like contraception, I really don’t care about abortion. Yes, it is an ugly thing. I would not anyone to go through that. As a man who has enjoyed women, I thank God I have never been in situation where I had to confront that with anyone. But it is a part of life. Women get pregnant. They seek abortions to undo the pregnancy. There is nothing pretty about it. It has been going on for thousand of years. It will go on until the end of time. This piece of legislation will do nothing to stop that. It exists simply to humiliate the woman.

What I find amusing about the religious anti-abortion crusaders is this. Most of the religious crusaders against abortion are white, middle class people who fantasize about living in a white, middle class world which is perfect and spotless. Just look at any anti-abortion protest to see this. These people generally do not like Blacks or Hispanics, and would probably wish most would simply go away. When you see them at anti-abortion protests, they are usually carrying signs with images of nice, cute, cherubic white babies, saying something like, “Please don’t abort me, Mommy!!!” And yet most abortions in this country are by Black and Hispanic women, the very same minorities most of these white, middle class people fear, dislike and do their best to generally avoid. Don’t they understand, that by keeping the abortion rates up they reduce the number of the very people they do not want to see around in the first place? The continued existence of abortion would keep America more white, more in line with the Pat Buchanan vision of what America should be, the vision and dream they fantasize about. It is an ugly fact, but it is a fact nonetheless.

So once again, the religious right show themselves to be one of the biggest group of hypocrites around. They don’t give a damn about the unborn children, they just want to control everyone else, in the name of God and “family values”. Once the kid is born, they would probably want to deport it or let it live in poverty, after they have dismantled all the federal welfare programs they despise, the same programs which exist in part to help the very same unborn children they are so zealous about. So much of their agenda is not even really about abortion, rather, it is about controlling everyone else in the religious theocracy they desire to impose on the world. It is about returning America to the pristine golden age of the early 1950′s, when everyone and everything was pure, when chaste women baked cookies for their children every day, when family values ruled. It was truly a blessed time.

Venus, the goddess of sex and love. At least the Pagans were not so uptight about like sex like so many Christians are.

My association with certain forms of Christianity is quickly unraveling at breakneck speed. As the Virginia situation reflects, many of these groups and movements are  starting to become unbearable. I simply do not believe or think as they do. As I once wrote, I really may have to go back to worshiping the ancient Greek and Roman Olympian Gods. I am already half way there at this point. At least they were not uptight about sexual pleasure, they encouraged it as a matter of fact, and they did not give a fuck about abortion either.

And for those of you who think this only applies to women, just remember, once the religious right gets through with the issue of abortion, they will coming after you, to ban and prohibit and criminalize whatever they deem a threat to family values and God’s law, whatever they deem as contrary to the Bible, regardless of your rights and liberties.

The Catholic One Percent: Is the Catholic Church the World’s Biggest Cult?

Cults demand absolute, unquestioning obedience from their members. In the cult of Racer X, this is how I will enforce obedience.

With each passing day, I become increasingly detached from the Catholic Church. The latest controversy over contraception is just another straw on the proverbial camel’s back.

I don’t give a fuck about contraception. I think the whole argument is ridiculous. Again, it is another example of the Church being obsessed over sexual matters. If we look at this rationally, would it not make sense that a Church whose leadership is exclusively made up of celibate men would be obsessed with sexual morality? The teaching that every single sexual act needs to be open to the procreation of life, otherwise it is a sin, is something I simply do not believe in.

I am just sick of it all: the teachings against homosexuality, contraception, sexual purity, etc. The fact that 98% of Catholic women use some form of contraception is the clearest evidence of the great divide between what the Church teaches on sexual ethics and the practice of the ordinary member of that Church. Most Catholics simply do not follow all the teachings of the Church. They never have and never will.

Strict religious doctrine on sexuality often leads to some amusing contradictions.

I find it amusing when I see women listen to and obey celibate, and often homosexual, clergy telling them that they should not use contraception, engage in sex outside of marriage, masturbate, etc. I suppose they are part of the one percent of the Catholic women who do not use contraception, for whatever reason. I often wonder if the entire Catholic Church could really be distilled down to a meager one percent of people who actually believe and practice the faith. If everyone who did not practice every tenet of the faith were excommunicated from the Church, which is what most orthodox Catholics would like, in the name of religious purity, the Church would look quite different.

At this point in my life, I simply feel divorced from many of the official teachings of this Church. I really do not belong or fit in with the average parish. I certainly do not subscribe to the idealized vision of Catholic family life that is so often promoted. My world, my experiences are different. I dislike the cold logic of theology so popular among Catholic apologists, especially when it pertains to spirituality and human behaviors. The common answer to these issues is: well, just submit and be humble and obey. The Church authorities know what is right. It is prideful for you to think for yourself. Think of Jesus.

When I hear such a response, I begin to wonder if the Catholic Church is not the world’s biggest cult. After all, many of the structures between a cult and the Church are similar. Cults often function on the notion that God has instilled anointed leaders with divine wisdom. The follower is to obey, for it is in the best interest of their soul, and if they do not obey, they will be punished somehow, either in this life or the next. Fear and intimidation are used to support those in power. Dialogue and discussion are suppressed. Ignorance is encouraged. Reading things that the leaders deem threatening is prohibited. We are told, as Catholics, to obey the bishops, the Church’s teaching, and if we question things, we are “prideful” and not “obedient”. We are told what movies and books to read, all in the name of spiritual purity. The theologian and priest Charles Curran was banned from teaching at a Catholic institution because he questioned the Church’s teachings on sexual ethics. This, at the same time the Church was promoting and complimenting the child rapist founder of the cult like Legion of Christ, Marcial Maciel, as a “efficacious guide to youth”. Exclusion from heaven is the ultimate threat of not obeying what we are told to think. Looking at these things from a purely historical or sociological perspective, the Church looks really fucked up.

The Ayatollah Rick Santorum, once he is elected President and ushers in an era or religious utoptia in the United States. This is what makes holy Catholic women wet.

I am supposed to simply believe in something, such as the prohibition on contraception, which I think to be ludicrous? Am I really supposed to think that the gay people I know and like are somehow morally evil and disordered? Am I really supposed to suppress all my sexual desires, my complete sexuality, until the night I might be married? I am not suppose to question that? If I do question that, I am being “prideful”? If I write about it here, I am often called “hateful”. “Why bother even calling yourself a Catholic, or a Christian for that matter” is what the holy disciples often tell me. It is all becoming too much for me.

Furthermore, the outright hatred and prejudice I see coming from so many Christians is disturbing. The Catholic blogosphere is the worst. Gay people are evil. Single mothers are sinners. Anyone not “saved” is somehow flawed. The world went to hell in 1960, everything before then was a golden age of Catholic purity. The world is often portrayed by Christians as a Manichean struggle betwen good and evil. Republicans are on the side of goodness, Democrats are evil. The consequent spiritual pride is often overwhelming. But the sad fact is that this has always been a part of Christianity. From the earliest days, Christians cut themselves off from the corrupted world, believing they were better than others, purer, part of God’s chosen people. This of course will lead to a serious epidemic of spiritual pride. How can it not? We can see this most vividly in the splintering of Christianity itself into numerous sects, each one thinking it has the true, pure faith, while everyone else is tainted. Catholic vs. Orthodox, Catholic vs. Protestant, Protestant vs. Protestant, etc. I suppose this is only inevitable with human nature and religion. But it is something I do not want to be a part of. Belief in God, yes, a deep spiritual life, yes, being part of a group which triumphantly believes it is the sole recipient of absolute truth, no.

So now we have this whole contraception absurdity upon us. The orthodox Catholic media is out in full force, from EWTN to Bill Donahue to Rick Santorum crusading for the teaching of Holy Mother Church, the same teachings that 98% of Holy Mother Church’s precious children do not believe in. The Bishops are telling us we need to be obedient to them now. On a social and political, Church and State issue, I can understand the principles of this, but it still makes me uncomfortable, seeing that this is dealing with a teaching most Catholics ignore. The disconnect is simply too great. And is not contraception at least one way to keep down the abortion rate? What about helping women not die in childbirth, as use to be quite common, by helping them control their reproductive lives?

This is what Adam and Eve started doing in the garden of Eden...the source of all our woes!

The immutable fact of nature is that people are going to fuck, nothing is ever going to change that, so helping to keep down the unwanted pregnancy rate is a good thing. Contraception helps with that.

But alas…let me end this by promoting one of my favorite topics: erotic beauty. Here is beautiful naked woman for the religious puritans to condemn. Fuck you, assholes.

I love seeing a naked woman. For that, according to Catholic teachings, I am going to hell. O well.

And as far as contraception, well, when I fuck a woman, I use it, in one form or another. So again, fuck you, religious fanatics.

Spiritual Warmth

Portrait of Christ, by Rembrandt, ca. 1650.

Sometimes a great work of art can so well express the deeper things of life, such as this painting by Rembrandt of Christ. I think it is my all time favorite image of Jesus.

When I think of all the bigotry and hatred that so many religious people seem to express these days, the intolerance and prejudice against those who are different, those who do not fit into the traditional molds of family and socially approved structures, I like to look at this image. Sometimes I wonder why I believe anything. Often I wonder if I should just give the whole thing up and become a unabashed pagan. And then comes along an artist like Rembrandt who can produce works of such spiritual depth. I find art expresses spiritual truths better than a thousand volumes of the most convoluted and carefully reasoned theology. One painting can touch the mind, heart and soul in way that the cold logic of doctrine or theology cannot, at least for me.

I write a lot about sexual beauty, but beauty is more than simply sexual, and Rembrandt in his works captures a deep spiritual beauty unlike anyone else.

How can this painting be summed up? Warmth and understanding. These things are for me part of the essence of any faith.

John F. Kennedy: The Ultimate Alpha Male

John F. Kennedy: The Ultimate Alpha Male

Kennedy was one of the great alpha male of our times. Now I am sure most in the manosphere would probably despise JFK as being a liberal Democrat communist or something like that, but Kennedy headed the Democratic party which at the time was still more rooted in the old Roosevelt-Depression-WWII model than what later transpired in the late sixties, when pacificist sentiment and anti-Americanism became the more the rule. Kennedy also belonged to an era when politician were freer to pursue one of the perks of politics, sex, in a way they are no longer able to do today. This was age before “family values” became a rigid ideology and mass media did not exist to the extent it does today, where there is virtually no privacy anymore for public figures.

A testament to Kennedy’s alpha status is the relationship he had with his wife, Jacqueline Kennedy. She was a beautiful, cultured woman, who knew about his affairs. Even though these affairs undoubtedly caused her quite a bit of pain, or rather, perhaps because they caused her quite a bit of pain and drama, she was still deeply in love with her husband. To the day she died it was quite obvious that Kennedy had been the first, truest and deepest love of her life. She is buried next to him in Arlington National Cemetery.

Shortly after Kennedy’s death, Jacqueline made a few comments about the alpha Kennedy and the beta Adlai Stevenson (one of Kennedy’s earlier political rivals), and why the radical feminists of her time disliked Kennedy. It is really a telling quote about the whole world of sex, alphas and betas. As she said, “Violently liberal women” in politics preferred Stevenson to Kennedy because “they were scared of sex.”

This is worth repeating: the frigid feminist were “scared of sex”. How little things have changed in fifty years.

She also went on:  “Jack so obviously demanded from a woman – a relationship between a man and a woman where a man would be the leader and a woman be his wife and look up to him as a man.“

And further, on Stevenson’s beta status: With Adlai you could have another relationship where – you know, he’d sort of be sweet and you could talk, but you wouldn’t ever… I always thought women who were scared of sex loved Adlai.”

Jackie Kennedy was quite lovely. She understood that frigid feminist disliked Kennedy because they were "scared of sex".

In other words, what she saying is that Kennedy made women wet. He was virile. He was clearly in charge. Women knew he loved to have sex with as many of them as possible. And he was the most powerful man in the world, the President at a time when the United States was at its apex of power. Oh yeah, and the fact that he came from a wealthy, famous family did not hurt either. Stevenson, the sensitive beta male who would later become the prototype for all Democratic politicians, made women go dry. There was no gina tingle with Stevenson. With Kennedy, their was a flood of gina juice.

But most of all it was the Kennedy persona that so attracted women. Recently a woman, Mimi Beardsley Alford, published a book, Once Upon A Secret, in which she claims she had an affair with Kennedy while he was President, starting in 1962 when she was a 19 year old White House intern (not only that, she claims she lost her virginity to him). I recently saw an interview which the uber-cougar television hostess Meredith Vieira conducted with this woman. In the course of this interview Vieira was clearly trying to slut shame this woman, asking her if she felt used by Kennedy. Her response was a resounding “no”. Not only did she not feel used, but she admitted that she wanted to sleep with Kennedy, that she enjoyed the affair. In other words, she wanted his alpha sperm. She also says how boyish Kennedy was when not in the public eyes. He simply enjoyed life, and an enjoyment of life means to alphas like Kennedy enjoying women sexually.

Kennedy's intern mistress. Probably one of many. I want to be President now.

It reminds me how women in Hollywood often described another great alpha male, Clark Gable, as being boyish and fun loving. They found this attractive. Women do not find uptight, morally pure men attractive. This is one of the keys to being a good seducer of women: don’t be too serious with them. Show them that what they will enjoy with you will be pleasure, pure and simple, and something entertaining. Know, and let them know,  that you can have a good, passionate affair with them, and still be able to walk away at any time. Contrary to popular belief,  many women do like to fuck simply for the pleasure of it, with nothing more expected. Beta males, in their constant need to please and supplicate themselves to the emotionally flightiness of women, lose the interest of those same women, who would rather be violently pile driven by a strong, difficult and mysterious alpha cock than followed around by a puppy like beta male.  The beta males only become useful later, when she needs a provider. Then they marry them. Even then, she will still be susceptible to alpha seduction. I know this myself, having banged many bored housewives and girlfriend who still “loved” their partners, but found them dull and boring and bad in bed. As one woman told me, “I like you because you don’t ask me any questions.” She just wanted a good lover, without complications. She wanted to feel desired again. I provided that. Women want these things. They want fun and excitement. They want passion and secrets. Men like Kennedy know how to deliver that to them.

Like Racer X, Kennedy enjoyed the finer pleasures of life, especially women.

In theo neo-puritanism of today many fail to appreciate this wonderful part of life, the joys of sexual pleasure with other people. Today, everything is all so dark and serious in the realm of sex, thanks in part to the pervasive influence of all those “violently liberal women” that Jackie Kennedy so disparaged. When it comes to sex, feminist are the equivalent to the Taliban as far as I am concerned. The Republican party, as well as all conservatives in general, have also adopted this anti-sex mentality. One of the reasons they so hate Kennedy was his philandering. Republicans are for the most part uptight, moralistic nerds who are afraid of sex, trapped in religious puritanism, and suspicious of anyone who can bed the women they were never able to (although they would secretly like to, but lack the balls to do so).

Kennedy enjoying life.

I like Kennedy. We need more politicians like him today. I am sure most women would agree too.  And for those whiny little internet manosphere warrior bitches living in their mothers’ basements who want to argue that Kennedy is not the “ultimate” alpha male I have only one comment: there nothing more apha than being President of the United States. Kennedy knew the perks of the office: banging as many women as possible.

The Pefect Pulp Fiction Evening

A lovely pulp scenario...

As I wrote in a post some time ago,
http://theracerx.wordpress.com/2010/12/16/pulp-fiction-a-lost-male-literary-genre, the old pulp magazines and novels were cheap but popular sources of fiction and entertainment before the age of film and television. The heyday of pulp literature was from about 1900-1950. With the advent of television, the pulp magazines entered a steady decline until their eventual extinction. The above photo beautifully captures the pictural and literary essence of the old pulp publications.

It is hard to imagine that there was a time when people could actually make a living by simply writing stories for these magazines. Some of the top writers of the twentieth century contributed to many of these publications, some of whom, like Edgar Rice Burroughs, become quite famous for their creations (Tarzan, John Carter of Mars). Burroughs is only one of many well known and good, even great, writers who contributed to these unique and entertaining forms of literature. And the cover art was truly magnificent. Some great artists worked on these magazines.

The above photo reflects the masculine orientation of the pulp literary world. In our age of the Oprah book of the month club, with its endless pink publication about sisters fighting with each other or other such girly themes, this seems like quite an anachronism. And yet it is still quite appealing. The colors are masculine: a shadowy blend of reddish orange and dark blues, it has the atmosphere of a good bar or pool hall. Every good pulp production has beautiful women and tough men, and this photo reflects that. Also, like some good hard boiled crime drama, the setting is urban, with a nighttime view of skyscrapers visible from the window. To me this would be a nice scenario: after working on some imaginative fiction in the midst of a filthy but dynamic and decadent metropolis like New York, the evening would be capped by a nice erotic rendevous with my hot secretary. Sex and pulps went hand in hand. In many ways the pulps, in their vigorous display of male sexual desire and fantasies, were the precursors to later porn publications. As I mentioned in my early post, the great phenomenon of the Pulp fiction is a lost male literary world.

Another favorite male pastime found in pulps: guns, gambling and women.

One things the pulps did without apology was appeal to the imagination. In today’s world of video games and online this or that, the imagination is being sorely neglected. Fantasy is a wonderful part of the human experience. The use of the imagination is a powerful sexual stimulus. One of the things I dislike about so much modern porn is that so little is left to the imagination. Our imaginations, like anything else, can atrophy if not used on a regular basis. Part of the thrill of erotic experience is the simple wonder and enticement of the what if, the desire to explore more fully what are mind and desires are leading us towards. Older publications such as the pulps were able to capture these things in a way that most modern publications no longer can.

So here is toast to the wonderful, male world of the old pulp publications! May they live in our memories forever.